其实, 我真的有好多事情很想说. 但是, 我很清楚. 说与不说, 其实没太大的分别... 每一次在夜深人静的夜晚, 一切的一切总会浮现在我脑海里. 一直忙忙碌碌, 感觉也累了. 心也老了. 一年一年的过去, 看的多了, 听的多了, 想法也不一样了.........

值得开心的事其实也不少...

人因梦想而伟大. 我一步一步的往梦想前进. 这样我也该开心吧?

Motivation stopped, determination declined, what is left, is hope...

原来, 就算过了这么多年, 对我, 还是有影响.....

是可惜还是应该?

突然一阵阵的不该塞满了我的回忆. 堵住了我的思维. 是可惜还是应该? 是活该还是不该? 一切的一切, 发生的发生, 都已是事实. 有些事, 是不可否认的. 没说, 不代表不_.

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友.

也许, 能, 闭上眼, 关闭脑, 才是最幸福的一件事..........

独送昏暗不离的风回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
一起活在这城市里更提起你名字
心还跳动却没重逢
只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选择但思念还转动

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

当又一次美梦落空回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什么让彼此选择
又不仅是尊重

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

Guess so

_ _ 不是一个办法. Stop.

5 More days to go. Definitely will remember all the fun all of us had.

Alan
- Looks happy
- More sentimental than you think so
- Complicated
- Thinks alot
- Claustrophobic
- Feels that alcohol is magical
- Is missing T
- Workaholic
- Actually not into clubbing
- Can't stand injustice
- Fantasize of having supernatural ability
- Plays er-hu
- Hates metal scrapping sound
- Seldom eat fish anymore
- Enjoys even the quietest moment
- Has a favourite spot to be alone
- Can never get what he wants

最後一次

Last piece of song... This is touching. Do take a look..

New path

I..............
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I..............................
I.....................................
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I....................................................

Tendered my resignation on monday.................................

Finally..... I have make up my mind. Is tough to reach this step. I know the pay is good........ The workload is EVEN better. My working hours is even longer than FULL shift. But actually i am not complaining. I don't mind working till wee hours. I don't mind heavy workload. Just that i seriously think i am not being appreciated. Empty promises. I can't stand that. There are still many reasons. Too many to name. Now, i have dropped the bomb. So is time to take a break. Move on and face new challenges.

Yes, it is

Another 6 more hours i will be in the office. Public holiday but not for me.

Frustration, stress, disappoinment.
Excited, relieve, hopeful.

Is the total reverse of each emotions but yet i am feeling it all.

Sometimes i feel i am running away. Escaping. Unwilling to face the truth. Nightlife is a way to hide within the darkness without expressing myself.

I have been convincing myself what i can't and not what i can.

Perhaps i really can't do it anymore. Perhaps right from the start i am not capable of. Perhaps it is not meant to. Perhaps perhaps.... That is why i am reluctant.

I got a cat. A cat with no name. A stray cat under my house. One i constantly feed whenever i reach home. One that is willing to follow me around even though i am not carrying any food. One that is willing to walk around my legs when i am standing still. One that makes me feel wanted. This feeling is incredible. Absolutely.

I have been waiting... Waiting.. Continuously waiting...

I know i know

18 hours... Currently that is my record for continous work in office. I seriously don't feel good about working till 12am or later almost everyday. I started work from 9am. Yet i finish work with the Europe shift which started around 4pm?

I tend to pour things out easily to you. Thanks for coming down on sat. Thanks for drinking with me. Thanks for hearing me out. Thanks for the encouragements. You are really someone i can relate to even though we didn't know each other for long. Don't forget, you promise to get me different sweets from each country that you stop by. But perhaps one day you should stop flying. Shall see you soon ya. =)

I haven been seeing many of my friends. The meet up with anna and the rest also keep on postpone. Lian they all too. I do miss each and everyone. =)

Some random talks with denise actually got me thinking....

听的多, 看的更多. After that, you will realise what is actually going on. I might not say anything. I might act blur. I might even act ignorant. But definitely, i know more than you thought so. People do underestimates me. You are one of them.

微笑不代表我快乐. 沉默不代表我难过. 眼神中带着一丝丝忧伤不一定是因为我悲伤. 也可能是因为.............. 我已忘了什么是快乐......

人生无常

工作压的我喘不过气. 每一分每一秒, 变的额外紧张. 累.. 累了..

人老了.. 我也觉得我老了... 心境变的如此脆弱. 我知道, 很多事情, 往往由不得我们做主.

常说, 天意难违. 星期一的午夜时分, 七月二十号, 你走了. 我心里很乱. 或许一切来的太突然. 我直到现在都还反应不过来. 两年前, 我们一起去了中国. 那时的你, 还好好的. 一起搭巴士, 火车, 飞机..... 一起游山玩水.... 一起吃喝玩乐.... 我还能模糊的记得你那老实的微笑... 那时你还跟我说了好多好多的话... 这两天, 在你的灵堂, 我不懂要说什么. 看到憔悴, 瘦弱的你, 躺的那么安祥, 我不禁感到心酸... 曾经存在, 现在却消失了... 我本来想在星期三下班后, 去看望你. 可惜, 我太迟了... 一切都太晚了.... 我后悔.... 为何不早一点去探望你. 忙忙碌碌, 又是何苦....

大舅, 我真的希望, 从此以后, 你的痛苦都随着这一切的过去而消失..

这个星期六, 让我送你最后一程... 就让这, 成为我们最后的一段路.....