Yes, it is

Another 6 more hours i will be in the office. Public holiday but not for me.

Frustration, stress, disappoinment.
Excited, relieve, hopeful.

Is the total reverse of each emotions but yet i am feeling it all.

Sometimes i feel i am running away. Escaping. Unwilling to face the truth. Nightlife is a way to hide within the darkness without expressing myself.

I have been convincing myself what i can't and not what i can.

Perhaps i really can't do it anymore. Perhaps right from the start i am not capable of. Perhaps it is not meant to. Perhaps perhaps.... That is why i am reluctant.

I got a cat. A cat with no name. A stray cat under my house. One i constantly feed whenever i reach home. One that is willing to follow me around even though i am not carrying any food. One that is willing to walk around my legs when i am standing still. One that makes me feel wanted. This feeling is incredible. Absolutely.

I have been waiting... Waiting.. Continuously waiting...