Kaitse

I woke up suddenly. Feeling upset. Anxiety kicks in.

I had a nightmare. A dream i cant explain. Is it because i care too much? Or is it due to the fact it actually meant a lot to me? What are the possibilities? Should i plot a graph? Should i calculate? Why am i waking up at such an unearthly hour? Why am i dreaming about something that i should never be involve in? Did i make the wrong move? Dreams are reality check that is tormenting me. Nightmare is a continous effect that dreams lure me into. Is it because i am in a mess? Created additional problems to my current complicated life? That is why i can never be at ease?

This is the time i should sit down and think. Is this what i want? Should i follow shalene's thinkings? Should i agree to shalene's? A peaceful night yet here i am, wondering about stupid stuff like this.

Look at me, dont you find it amusing the way i am going? I am confident about my future. Just that sometimes is just about the mind, heart and soul. I got to protect myself. Ok, speaking about this, i realised what a mess i am getting myself into. Everything shall stop here. I cant and i wont. Easier said than done yea? But who cares? It is just me, myself and i... =)

Hulluna

Clubbing yesterday was crazy! All hell break loose. You wont wanna know. A very crazy and wild night.

Merlions everywhere. In and out. Walk anywhere also can go "Wah~". Lol.. I remember i was in the toilet relieving myself. Then a girl walks in. Zzz.. I did not notice until she pass by me. Is like wth.. She is drunk and went to the wrong toilet la. Still able to use the cubicle in the guy's restroom and after that walk out smiling. She only noticed she is in the wrong area when washing hands. Lol.. But she still takes it very easy and adjust her clothes in front of the mirror. Still got the time to touch up on her hair. Girls nowadays.. Speechless..

I dont know.. I really dont know.. What can i say...

Should not drink so much. Was just like emo-ing. So i just down glass after glass. =)

Eh amanda ho. Thanks for being so nice and sweet. I was quite surprised by you. You are the first girl who will come pick me up if i am drunk. Even though you did not join me, you still willing to go the extra mile. Thanks..

Ok miss winnie. Sorry la chen lao shi. Chen zhen wen~ Sorry alright.. Forgive me~ I did not meant to fly you plane. I am not a pilot.. Accept my public apology ok. =( I will make it up to you. Just let me know. Lao shi should not be small air! Haha..

Blessing in disguise. Is that supposed to be true? There are too many things going on now. I dont know whether i can handle or not. But if this is the path i should take, i will walk it till the end.

Ansiedade

Yesterday was atrocious. Skipped breakfast and lunch just to do my task. The whole day been rushing. Still got to inspect arms. I already expected my book out timing will be quite late. Sian.. Slogged like a dog. Monday still got to do more!

Booked out, went home bathe then meet mich. Caught a show Deception in cine. Quite an interesting plot. Before that was dinner, at the "wang jiao hongkong cafe". Nice curry and dessert. Dim sum was alright only. Sometimes i feel like i talk too much. That is why i told my friends that i hope i can talk lesser. Haha.. But..... She is actually the champion. I got to salute her. I pale in comparison to her. Lol.. After the show decided not to drink. So we went partyworld instead. Been like going singing so often. Is like a routine. Reached home nearly 7am. Slept till now.

Ok, going swimming after finishing my post. I love to swim! Tennis.... Joanna! =( Lets go for tennis this coming week ok!

Pictures are not with me this time round. Shall upload it another day or place. Have a good weekend everyone. Cheers to the upcoming national day and condolence to all misfortunate events this year.

Verstandig

Ok yesterday went for dental FFI. Then go back camp for body FFI. Got back my blood test result. Everything pass. So i am fit to ORD! Haha.. =D 22 more days! How fast time flies. But, one more day left for my standing order. Stress. Wanna clear leave on july 9th to july 14th. Got rejected as my regular captain want me to be part of the audit team. Zzz... But perhaps due to my ORD mood, i argued with him. I just dont understand, why me! Currently, he has two officers, two warrant officers, 3 sergeants including me and lots of men in the platoon. He die die also want to add me in. I guessed i am getting daring. I rejected his request and told him i need to clear leaves. I keep highlighting my ORD date and told him to find other specialist instead. He bombed me with so much tasks and still want to plan my leaves for me. He suggested other dates but i declined to accept. =) After some arguing, he relented and let me off! See, the power of ORD personnel. Haha..

Yesterday went for a show in tampines mall with michelle. Get smart. Super nice! Damn hilarious. Is actually quite a last minute meet up. We just decided online and went off for the show since we live nearby to each other. Haha.. Dinner was at ajisan. Wanted to go MOS with her after the show but the thought of booking in the next morning stopped me. As usual, her photo taking time. But this time i am included in some of it. Get smart is really worth the money. As what i expected, june is a great month for movie!

List of movies
- Zohan
- Chi bi
- Wanted

Chi bi, i been waiting for it! Finally is releasing. Somethings just cant change. I am a fanatic for romance of the three kingdom since young. I cant help it.. Lol.. Can you imagine a k2 kid played the strategic game and start reading the novel at primary 1?? After years of readings, he finished almost all of library's collection. Be it words only or pictures storybook. Remembering almost all the details that happened and the time of event. Incredible? I am actually amazed by my own enthusiasm. That explains why my chinese is always A1 i guess..

Maybe that is why i am a good business man during primary school days! My brain cells move fast. Shhhhhhh........... This is a secret! No one even my best friend know about this. I only told one person before. Lol.. Let this be a mystery forever. =)

Pictures

Alright, shall go watch some shows first so that i can delete them away. Wasting of space. Look at the bright side of life. =)

Esmagar

Ok let me share a piece of good news. I passed my bridging! I got a pass for mathematics which is a killer. Guess got quite a few people who failed. Mathematics consists of A-maths, E-maths, statistics and calculus. The paper was dreadful. Lost all confidence after it. Haha.. But i scored B+ for my economics. One more grade to distinction! So now i officially skipped my foundation year and progress to year two! How great.. Congrats to myself.

Haha.. I am surprised that you actually remember that my mum loves to eat KFC. Been like 5 years ago. Good memory ya miss amanda ho. But no prize. =)

I am being described as expressive, someone with a point of view, sensible and persuasive. I cant deny that i guess.

E.Sing says:
i'm overwhelmed
E.Sing says:
seriously
E.Sing says:
no one
E.Sing says:
no one has ever speak to me like this
E.Sing says:
no one dares to lecture me
E.Sing says:
a lot of my friends wait for me to speak out before they start to giv their 2 cents worth
E.Sing says:
guys esp, they are usually not good w words

Lol.. I am good with words? Maybe i should go host variety show. Perhaps then the next jacky wu will be me? Crap..

Morsomt

The due date for my standing order is this coming friday.. If not can prepare to sign extra already. ARrgggGg! I am even doing it at home la! Zzz..

Alright, yesterday was fun! Out with S, W, D, C. Lol.. Finally to loof again. Took the aircon area with the mattress. We actually stayed there for nearly 4 hours. Games and games. Forfeits and more forfeits. Some are really hilarious. Starting with the 007, after that bluff then code number.

Starting forfeit: getting names of strangers. The most unique one i guess is audrua.

After that: getting comments from strangers for first impression.

Next: Ask strangers to rate on appearance from 1-10. 1 = poor, 10 = best.

The last forfeit like too sensitive la. Haha.. But all goes well.

These are some of the comments given

Got girls saying darren is cute! The guys from the other table even purposely come over and tell us. Lol.. People said shalene and weiling pretty. But is true. Got to agree. Haha.. I got forfeited for the last question. So i went over to a nearby table which is like a guy and a lady. I asked the guy to rate me and he keep rejecting la! He said: "I am a guy, i cant rate you. I will be bias". Zzz.. So he pushed to the lady beside him to rate me. She asked lots of questions before writing down comments. Asking me to stand straight, my age, my nationality, single or attached, where i stay and blah blah blah.. She told me she is from korea. No wonder she dont look like local and her slang is different. Her complexion is like perfect. Pretty with long hair. Haha.. She told me she like young guys and my age is good for her. LOL! That is obvious flirting la. Korean girl... Is like a fantasy. =p

After all the games, food and alcohol, we went PS for a midnight show at 2am. Hulk. Not really fantastic. Just average only. Compared to ironman, this is nothing. I wanna watch get smart! Perhaps this coming weekend. =)

As usual, boring sunday. Never go church today. Next week shall try to attend.

I want more fun nights and other activities too. I realised actually singapore can have more programs. Is just a matter of whether people are willing to go find and explore or not. I still got many places wanna go.

I know what i want in life already and now, back to the life i used to enjoy. =)

Kuri

Task completed

- Bunks checked

Ongoing tasks

- Clearing of unserviceable items
- Doing fire standing order
- At least 100 fire points to check and update
- Preparing for audit check

New tasks

- Creating a master list for my whole unit
- Adding of new fire points
- Subledge lists
- Clear armoury workshop
- Weapons

Zzz.. I am going to ORD in another 4 weeks. Still have around a week of leave and off. So i am officially left with 3 weeks in camp. Yet the amount of tasks i have is like WA. How great right. I knew things like this will happen. Stress.. My superior still got the cheeks to tell me, "Alan, you are very capable and efficient. Why dont you sign on and assist me?" Sign on.. SIGN ON.. What a joke. Whatever la, i will do what i can within these few weeks. Consider that as a challenge too. Tight on schedule. Busy, busy and busy. I need a break.

Ok, yesterday as in tuesday, went for a movie at the new cathay in downtown east E!Hub. I find the place very cosy and of course new. Bought tickets for the happenings. Not very happening though. Haha.. Kinda boring. Not worth to watch at all. Before that ate newyork newyork for dinner. Got requested to help taking a series of photos! But none have me inside. Is all about one person's 自恋. Lol.. Maybe i shall post some. This is just like less than 1/10 of the pictures la.



Reached home around 12am plus. Fell asleep after bathing. Too tired. Went for a movie straight after camp. I need more sleep. I even work till late at night la. Lucky for me, i took an off day tomorrow, thursday. My workload is even worse than those working in outside world. Do overtime with no extra pay. Everything must be in tiptop condition. Everything will be over in an instant. Let me make the final push! Work work work! =)

Ok, next few shows on my list are

- Get smart
- You don't mess with the zohan
- The incredible hulk

I think i wont have time to watch narnia. Sigh..

Basketball tomorrow.

Gonna go sleep already. Sleepy.. Night.

Chanter

Slept way early yesterday. Before 7pm i already in my dream land. Woke up at 4am then prepare to go camp. Busy day in camp.

- Did a bunk inspection today and caught many dirty bunks
- Clearing of unserviceable items
- Doing fire standing order for my unit
- Over 100 fire points to check and update
- Preparing for an audit check
- Blood test this morning

Speaking of blood test, medics cant be trusted. They told me this medic is the most senior and experience in drawing blood. But... He poked me 3 times before finally manage to draw a tube of blood. Every NSF got to do a HIV test before they ORD. That explains the blood test. Still got dental and other tests. Oh ya, let me say about the 3 pokes.

The first time he tried, blood came out but in a low quantity then the flow stopped. It turned out to be that he never jab deep enough. So he tried to adjust by shifting left and right while constantly trying to penetrate deeper. Imagine the pain. Until i cant take it, i requested him to find another spot. Second attempt failed as he aimed the wrong area. Got poked for nothing. Third attempt he finally got the right spot. Normal drawing of blood, the blood will flow into the needle tube very quickly and naturally. But this medic, he keep pulling and pushing the tube behind the needle like pumping a ball la, until the whole tube is filled with my blood. What a torturing experience. Now there are bruises on my arm. That is why everyone have no confidence in SAF's medics! But i still believe not all medics are lousy.

Ok enough said, went top one to sing on sat. Listen to this song. I just cant help but video it down. Hell funny la.

Ok this is my solo one. Not nice but still wanna post. I have the right to post and you have the right not to listen. =)

Alright, got to go sleep. Zzz monster is pestering me. Night..

Nehoda

Second death incident in the army within less than a week. First is from bmtc, a recruit fainted after road march. Now is a pilot. Due to my camp under airforce, now the whole unit is not allow to do any exercise till further notice. That means, other than normal activities, no swimming, no gym, no running, no soccer, no basketball and anything that requires physical strength. SAF always waits for something to happen then they will react. But by the time they do, is already too late.. May god bless the souls of the dead.

Watched kungfu panda yesterday. Better than i thought. After that went summer breeze to chill. Hoegarden as usual for me. Went over to the beach and enjoy the sea breeze for a while. The rock area just infront of the sands. Lie down there for a moment trying to catch a glimpse of the stars in the sky. But sad to say, clouds are deterring my efforts to. Chatted a while before making our way home. I enjoyed time like this. Thanks for asking me out.

Thinking of whether going for CO later or not. Performance coming out. Hmmm...

Going to bugis later to sing. Perhaps a movie too. I want to watch narnia.. Is finishing..... Madacasgar 2 is coming out. Looks interesting. The penguins and their lame stunts. Haha.. "I wanna move it move it".

Weird.. This is getting so weird..

Getting sick..

Maybe i should go loof tonight. That place is really nice. If i can find people, i will go. =(

Pasiune

Wondering in the middle of the night, what is right and wrong. Decisions and choices. What should i do....

Chosen my units for semester one and two.
Principles of banking and finance, principles of accounting, macroeconomics and corporate finance.
Guess the most difficult one is corporate finance.
In the same class with 5 friends! How great. Luckily i saw weimin during orientation. If not i wont know she took the same course as me. So we decided to choose the same to keep each other company. =)
Just got to know a new friend through eve. Daphne. She is from my bridging class. The best is she live in tampines too, and very near my house. Five minutes walk only. A very nice and helpful person. Thanks for all the help given. Same class with her for two subjects. So, shall see you around in school ya.
School stuff settled.

开始的开始总是甜蜜的.
后来就有了厌倦, 习惯, 背弃, 寂寞, 绝望和冷笑.
曾经渴望与一个人长相厮守.
但是往往老天捉弄人.

能够在一起, 其实已经算是一种福气.
茫茫人海里, 找寻一个知己, 就像是大海捞针.
拥有时就该好好珍惜.
等到消失时, 后悔也来不及了.

因为爱情的缘故, 两个陌生人可以突然熟悉到睡在同一张床上.
然而, 相同的两个人,
在分手时却说, "我觉得你越来越陌生".
爱情将两个人由陌生变成熟悉, 又由熟悉变成陌生.
爱情正是一个将一对陌生人变成情侣, 又将一对情侣变成陌生人的游戏.

时间会让你了解爱情, 时间能够证明爱情, 也能够让爱情消失.
没有一种悲伤是不能被时间减轻的.
如果所有的悲哀, 痛苦, 失败都是假的, 那该有多好?
可惜, 世上有很多假情假义, 自己的痛苦, 失败, 悲哀, 却偏偏总是真的.

爱情从来都是一种束缚, 追求爱情并不等于不追求自由.
自由可贵, 我们用这最宝贵的东西换取爱情.
因为爱一个人, 明知会失去自由, 也甘愿作出承诺.

男人伪装坚强, 只是害怕被女人发现他软弱.
女人伪装幸福, 只是害怕被男人发现她伤心.

爱情有生, 老, 病, 死.
爱情总在不知不觉间过期.
爱情中最伤感的时刻是后期的冷淡.
一个曾经爱过你的人, 忽然离你很远, 近尺之隔, 却是天涯.
曾经轰轰烈烈, 曾经形影不离, 曾经沾沾自喜, 曾经柔肠寸断.
到了最后, 最悲哀的分手竟然是悄无声息.

Obljuba

Just back from meeting ting. Ok shall post some videos. It might not be something new, but is what i really like.

I find this very touching even though it is not jay's MV.
*蒲公英的约定*

已经长大的约定
那样真心
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清
你是友情
还是错过的爱情

This is just the piano version.
*蒲公英的约定*

Bluten

Shag. Tired. Giddy. Painful. Sleepy.

I just got home and showered.

Phuture super boring la. Spend so much yet the fun is not there. The crowd yesterday not that good. More eye sores than candies. Lots of young boys and girls. We drank like 8-10 jugs, sex on the beach shots, baileys and dont know what. Cant remember. Was high but still not fun! We left super early. Imagine how bored we are. Therefore decided to go play mahjong instead. Play until this morning. Lost 10bucks only. I think we should club hop. Shall try other clubs next time. I love night life! I love how much freedom i am having now! =)

I think i accidentally slipped. Did not fall down but just knocked against something. Suffered a swollen knee and a deep cut on my foot. Cant remember what cut my sole. I only notice it when they saw blood everywhere on the floor. Then i realised is from my sole. Haha.. It just keep bleeding. Zzz.. I bathe finish and sitting down. Now is bleeding again. Is really deep~ Johnny depp~ Lol..

Tired but i guess i shall watch my survivors! Micronesia!

Valdymas

Yea, i am. Indeed i am. I am just not one you can take control. Not one willing to be controlled. Dont bother and stop trying to. You can never gain control of my life and what i am doing. If i am willing to, i will be subdue by you. If not, leave me alone. I just not willing to submit to you! See it? Pissed. Stop arranging things without my consent. Your actions turned me off. I have no interest in you.

Is hard for me to find someone i am willing to be tied down to.

Whatever la. Irritating. I am going to take a shower now. Going out soon. Might be going phuture later. Rainy days are best for.... Sleeping! Woke up too early. Now kinda sleepy.. Zzz..

Shan, wait till i lure you out using food! Haha.. I totally can imagine you crawling out. I might pass by tomorrow. So let you know again ya.

Ok. Felt better now. Hope i did well for my exams! =)

Onda

I am tempted to dial... A surge of........

Going out soon. Just wanna type something.

Control...

I just wanna break through..

In camp was a disaster. I can feel arrows flying around. Sad to say, i got a headshot. So i got to sort out my listings from 2003-2008. 5 years of data.. I knew something like this will happen before i ord. Expected. They are pushing everything to me. Make full use of me before i leave the unit.

Thanks for waking me up and standby me all these while.

No mood for mahjong with shalene and company.. So i guess i will opt for other alternatives..

-We are just drifters-

Atmen

Going back to camp in another hour. Went sakae to eat just now. Nice food! Got reminded of... Ok never mind, after that walked around for a while and did some shopping! Seriously la, been dont know how long since my last shopping trip. After that went back home. A while later went summer breeze! Slacked then home again. I cut everything short because i have no time and lazy to blog! =)

Breathe! Just breathe!

Alright, going back to camp.

Fuga

Too alike yet different. Weird combination. What is right and what is wrong. Only after everything is finished and done with, then we will realised.. But.. 往往已经太迟了...

Finally exams ended. Free time again. Wanna go sing after exams but sito needs to go back camp. I on leave till thursday. Friday go back then book out. Boring.. Hard time planning my trip. Still got lots of things to purchase. Anyone wanna be nice and send me off? =) I believe joanna you will surely wanna send me right? Even if the whole world condemned me, you will stand by me right? I always think you are such a nice person. That is why all your friends love you. Haha.. We still got lots of things to do!

Weiling is saying mahjong on fri and clubbing on sat. Hmm..

Going for sushi tomorrow. You better wake up. =)

Miss tsz shan! Stop staring at the chicken wings and smile. Lol.. I can never understand how can you be such a big eater when you are like a bamboo stick. I think no one can satisfy your cravings. Is like a no ending every hour affair. Mandarin hotel buffet.

Wanna get joey to go swimming and tanning tomorrow morning. But think too late to ask now and i dont have his number! Perhaps i shall go myself. Need a swim to relax.

My mind is constantly bothered. Reaching this stage is never easy. You will never know how much efforts and hardwork i put in. No one can understand what i been through. I wont wanna risk anything. Although life is about risk, i still preferred a calculated risk plan. I am going numb...

Indeed when i looked back, i used to be that childish. Progressing at a different pace. I starting to lose out. Unwillingness to communicate and reluctant to help me catch up, our distance grew further apart. Who can i blame when i am part of it? Failing to realise it too. After a heavy blow dealt on me, it took me months to think it through. Grasping for something that actually is already gone. Not saying that i have matured so much that i am now a completely different person. But rather, i am a better person than before. There are times when one needs to be serious about his/her life. There are also times when play is a major factor too. A well-balanced lifestyle is the only way for people to enjoy life to the fullest.

-Everything happened for a reason-

Conter

Why am i feeling this way so suddenly? I should not be... Why.. Am i just lying to myself? Is this the real me? Or i am just hiding beneath the appearance..... I thought.. I really thought so... Why is it so difficult?! I guess i am just suppressing myself. Why am i being affected? Why am i feeling sad.. Why.....

vizsga

I am seriously tired! I need a break from studies!! Bless me in my exams in another day!! Please i need to pass~