Kaitse

I woke up suddenly. Feeling upset. Anxiety kicks in.

I had a nightmare. A dream i cant explain. Is it because i care too much? Or is it due to the fact it actually meant a lot to me? What are the possibilities? Should i plot a graph? Should i calculate? Why am i waking up at such an unearthly hour? Why am i dreaming about something that i should never be involve in? Did i make the wrong move? Dreams are reality check that is tormenting me. Nightmare is a continous effect that dreams lure me into. Is it because i am in a mess? Created additional problems to my current complicated life? That is why i can never be at ease?

This is the time i should sit down and think. Is this what i want? Should i follow shalene's thinkings? Should i agree to shalene's? A peaceful night yet here i am, wondering about stupid stuff like this.

Look at me, dont you find it amusing the way i am going? I am confident about my future. Just that sometimes is just about the mind, heart and soul. I got to protect myself. Ok, speaking about this, i realised what a mess i am getting myself into. Everything shall stop here. I cant and i wont. Easier said than done yea? But who cares? It is just me, myself and i... =)