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Tendered my resignation on monday.................................

Finally..... I have make up my mind. Is tough to reach this step. I know the pay is good........ The workload is EVEN better. My working hours is even longer than FULL shift. But actually i am not complaining. I don't mind working till wee hours. I don't mind heavy workload. Just that i seriously think i am not being appreciated. Empty promises. I can't stand that. There are still many reasons. Too many to name. Now, i have dropped the bomb. So is time to take a break. Move on and face new challenges.

Yes, it is

Another 6 more hours i will be in the office. Public holiday but not for me.

Frustration, stress, disappoinment.
Excited, relieve, hopeful.

Is the total reverse of each emotions but yet i am feeling it all.

Sometimes i feel i am running away. Escaping. Unwilling to face the truth. Nightlife is a way to hide within the darkness without expressing myself.

I have been convincing myself what i can't and not what i can.

Perhaps i really can't do it anymore. Perhaps right from the start i am not capable of. Perhaps it is not meant to. Perhaps perhaps.... That is why i am reluctant.

I got a cat. A cat with no name. A stray cat under my house. One i constantly feed whenever i reach home. One that is willing to follow me around even though i am not carrying any food. One that is willing to walk around my legs when i am standing still. One that makes me feel wanted. This feeling is incredible. Absolutely.

I have been waiting... Waiting.. Continuously waiting...

I know i know

18 hours... Currently that is my record for continous work in office. I seriously don't feel good about working till 12am or later almost everyday. I started work from 9am. Yet i finish work with the Europe shift which started around 4pm?

I tend to pour things out easily to you. Thanks for coming down on sat. Thanks for drinking with me. Thanks for hearing me out. Thanks for the encouragements. You are really someone i can relate to even though we didn't know each other for long. Don't forget, you promise to get me different sweets from each country that you stop by. But perhaps one day you should stop flying. Shall see you soon ya. =)

I haven been seeing many of my friends. The meet up with anna and the rest also keep on postpone. Lian they all too. I do miss each and everyone. =)

Some random talks with denise actually got me thinking....

听的多, 看的更多. After that, you will realise what is actually going on. I might not say anything. I might act blur. I might even act ignorant. But definitely, i know more than you thought so. People do underestimates me. You are one of them.

微笑不代表我快乐. 沉默不代表我难过. 眼神中带着一丝丝忧伤不一定是因为我悲伤. 也可能是因为.............. 我已忘了什么是快乐......