Yes, it is

Another 6 more hours i will be in the office. Public holiday but not for me.

Frustration, stress, disappoinment.
Excited, relieve, hopeful.

Is the total reverse of each emotions but yet i am feeling it all.

Sometimes i feel i am running away. Escaping. Unwilling to face the truth. Nightlife is a way to hide within the darkness without expressing myself.

I have been convincing myself what i can't and not what i can.

Perhaps i really can't do it anymore. Perhaps right from the start i am not capable of. Perhaps it is not meant to. Perhaps perhaps.... That is why i am reluctant.

I got a cat. A cat with no name. A stray cat under my house. One i constantly feed whenever i reach home. One that is willing to follow me around even though i am not carrying any food. One that is willing to walk around my legs when i am standing still. One that makes me feel wanted. This feeling is incredible. Absolutely.

I have been waiting... Waiting.. Continuously waiting...

I know i know

18 hours... Currently that is my record for continous work in office. I seriously don't feel good about working till 12am or later almost everyday. I started work from 9am. Yet i finish work with the Europe shift which started around 4pm?

I tend to pour things out easily to you. Thanks for coming down on sat. Thanks for drinking with me. Thanks for hearing me out. Thanks for the encouragements. You are really someone i can relate to even though we didn't know each other for long. Don't forget, you promise to get me different sweets from each country that you stop by. But perhaps one day you should stop flying. Shall see you soon ya. =)

I haven been seeing many of my friends. The meet up with anna and the rest also keep on postpone. Lian they all too. I do miss each and everyone. =)

Some random talks with denise actually got me thinking....

听的多, 看的更多. After that, you will realise what is actually going on. I might not say anything. I might act blur. I might even act ignorant. But definitely, i know more than you thought so. People do underestimates me. You are one of them.

微笑不代表我快乐. 沉默不代表我难过. 眼神中带着一丝丝忧伤不一定是因为我悲伤. 也可能是因为.............. 我已忘了什么是快乐......

人生无常

工作压的我喘不过气. 每一分每一秒, 变的额外紧张. 累.. 累了..

人老了.. 我也觉得我老了... 心境变的如此脆弱. 我知道, 很多事情, 往往由不得我们做主.

常说, 天意难违. 星期一的午夜时分, 七月二十号, 你走了. 我心里很乱. 或许一切来的太突然. 我直到现在都还反应不过来. 两年前, 我们一起去了中国. 那时的你, 还好好的. 一起搭巴士, 火车, 飞机..... 一起游山玩水.... 一起吃喝玩乐.... 我还能模糊的记得你那老实的微笑... 那时你还跟我说了好多好多的话... 这两天, 在你的灵堂, 我不懂要说什么. 看到憔悴, 瘦弱的你, 躺的那么安祥, 我不禁感到心酸... 曾经存在, 现在却消失了... 我本来想在星期三下班后, 去看望你. 可惜, 我太迟了... 一切都太晚了.... 我后悔.... 为何不早一点去探望你. 忙忙碌碌, 又是何苦....

大舅, 我真的希望, 从此以后, 你的痛苦都随着这一切的过去而消失..

这个星期六, 让我送你最后一程... 就让这, 成为我们最后的一段路.....

Too much work......

Too little time...............

I need my sleep........................

I need many hugs......................................................

Threads of destiny

Red string
If we are fated to be together,
Even if our love failed now.
We will have a chance again.

This movie is great. Although i am not a fan of romance show, i recommend this.

Leave or Stay.

Cross junction.

Indecisive.

Tired of uncertainties.

45 days ago

I really like this song. Meaningful lyrics too. Finish the whole song. Watch the mtv, see the english subs. I guess most of you will then like it. =)

Is been 45 days.....

I remember...

Many ear rings.

Coloured hair.

Cats lover.

Unpredictable.

Stubborn.

Blur.

Slow response speed.

Big appetite.

No spicy food.

Chocolate fanatic.

Mac breakfast lover.

Cheeseburger.

Late owl.

Invisible.

Prata.

Tea.

Loves walking.

Bugis back to StG.

Secretive.

My present.

I want to be able to add on more to the list.. But.... 45 days.....

Eve of Good/Bad Friday

Fast and furious 4 is quite a nice show. Been a long time since all of us catch a movie together. Although you brought bad news to me, still, the night is great. Thanks to the both of you, for always being such wonderful friends. =)

Met weiling at the cinema. Happen to watch the same show too. Kinda surprised that her friend knew my name. Cause she called out alan and started talking to me.

Perhaps today is not a good day exactly. The show stop halfway due to power failure i believe. After that continue on after like 10mins break. Disrupted our mood.

Came back earlier as i got work tomorrow. Good friday and i will be back to the office.

A friend of mine just send me a super duper old picture! The demonstration event we did for the PM many years back. About 8-10 years ago i guess. Omg.. Those days... I can't help but laugh at myself. Ok, since i am in the mood to share, i shall post it.



I doubt is tough to guess who am i right? This is worth a laugh. =)

Ok then.. Night.

You're the concern i have.

Happy belated birthday

Toss and turn, i can't get to sleep. Decided to blog. This year is a quiet birthday. But i seriously do enjoy the late night dinner on my birthday. Thanks for the present. I really do appreciate and treasure it. I really do.. =)

Tons of things to say, perhaps an update of my bangkok trip last week. But can't really think in the middle of the night. So perhaps next time, with photos.

Birthday is over, april fool is over. Good friday next! But i will be working......... Yawn.. Whatever it is, i do have a birthday wish. One and only. But i think the probability for it to come true, is too insignificant for me to even mention it.. Sigh.. Oh well.... Hope.. I can still hope i guess..

只要你说一句, 世界就都属于你.......