Restless day

Finished my work early today. Received a message from janice. Asking whether wanna go home together or not. So i decided to leave with her. Went to tm for a while before heading home together. Actually i find it quite amusing. We are sitting opposite of each other. Yet got to message. Weird isn't it? Hmmm...

Sometimes life drive us crazy. Sometimes we drive ourselves mad. Once again, back to the starting line. I am not making sense here. Pardon me. Just allow my emotions to flow. Just cut me some slack. How i wish everyone can stop pressuring me. I am tense up at work every minute. How pathetic. Personal, work or school life, i am not expecting anything. Just hoping for a breakthrough. Sometimes in the middle of the work, receiving a simple message can brighten my day up. I can take stress. With stress, i can perform better. I wanna over take the rest. Trying hard. Very hard.. I guess i am pushing myself way too much.

Life's been real hard for me. Not family wise, not financially. Those who knows will understand what i been through.. Currently yea, i am stressing myself for working full time and studying part time. Straining my time away. But i just wanna succeed earlier than others. Compared to those rich kids, i am inferior. To those smart ass, i am nothing. Why do you think i wanna push myself so hard? I am not doing a 9am-6pm type of job. In fact is 9am till after 6pm. After 6pm is no limits. 12am. 1am. 2am. The next day the routine continues. No ending. I got to say, i lost myself.

Watching Hot Shot. Kinda lame but then i guess i am way too bored. This show is a copy of the anime slam dunk. Even the character's behaviours. Something to drive our boredom away yea?



Lost at work today. My mind just can't settle down. Messages keep coming in. But it is never you. I wished your name will flash on the screen everytime i turn and look at the incoming. How strange.. This feeling is so strong. What is wrong with me? Everything was normal till one fine day. I choose not to say, because i knew you have better options around. I guess, as long as you are happy, that is all it matters.