Another cinderella story

This is another great show. But i think the songs are better than the dance. Lets just lower our expectations. This will be good enough.

Exams are coming. Yet i am troubled by other matters.

I think i should just give up. Give it all up. Yea i guess...

It's become so hard
For me to be surprised
But you're bringing back the real me
No judgement in your eyes
It's the way you make me feel
Like i'm finally something real

Dedicated Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday! A special day for you! Enjoy yourself ya! Stay happy, bubbly and blur always! =)

This pub Howl At The Moon is quite unique. Went once, but i think i like it.

I....... Got many things to say........ But i can't manage to let it out............ Maybe bit by bit. But is not enough.... Sometimes sometimes, i am satisfied with the current situation. But....... I think is just not enough.... Do you know what i am talking about?

我终于明白, 办不到的承诺, 就成了枷锁... There was a time, when all things failed, what is left? Hope... A tiny hope is enough for a great motivation. One cannot live without hope. This is something that can never diminish from our heart.

Take a chance. Live a new life. You never know unless you try......

我一直很安静.. 默默地, 我觉的就足够了....
也许在梦境里, 是我们最近的距离...
没有你的每一天... 快乐离我好遥远.. 真的好遥远....

人生在世, 难得糊涂......

My sins

I know myself. Sometimes i do hate it. I knew i shouldn't. Yea... I knew but yet.......

I am full of sins. You don't know me. You don't know how much i had sinned. My closest friends knew. Is not real bad. But is still sinful of me. I can't help it.. Why.... For a long time, i been asking myself why am i doing this. Why can't i stop it. Why.. Is that really so important to me that i cannot give it up? Inside of me, there are always 1001 whys. I can never explain it. Deep down, i don't wanna be this way. I don't want to find excuses for myself. I hate lies. I hate dishonesty. Absolutely pointless. Tell me what is the meaning of life? I am not having suicidal thoughts. That is an immature behaviour.

Tell me... Am i that bad?
Tell me... Am i a good friend?
Tell me... What do you think of me?
Tell me.....
I need many answers..
I am just avoiding.
I can't face it.
I cant even face myself.
So tell me now, what can i do?

Random, and more

What can i say?

I know this is kinda random. In fact, i am always this way. I can never shift myself out of the nightmare. I started my dream, continuous dreaming and till now, it became dreamt.

I just watched underworld on sat. I think is nice. But then it doesn't link to any of the past two series. Is like a history of vampires and lycans. How they ended up seperated. Recently been playing left 4 dead. Fun is all i can say.. Nini chen sucks at it. Charmine is good. Lol..

I normally slept through my sat and sun. The only two days i can enjoy my sleep. Boring life.. Light me up! I think i am really used to sunday not going out. I can't seem to make myself step out of the house. Weekends always pass so fast.. Back to reality tomorrow.

Oh yea, this coming sat is Vday. My second Vday alone. Lol.. Anyone wanna give me a date? Stanley? No, you will be with jiahui. Sito? No, you will be with nini chen. The other girls? All with bfs. Only left darren? Oh man.. Damn it. Super reluctant to go out with you. Haha.. The two of us can go for a romantic candlelit dinner? Shall we? =)

I am stucked. There are many stuff in me that i wanna express it out. But... Lost for words. Going down to meet stan now.

Ok deb, i know you are reading this. Nice knowing you. =) Lol..

In seven days, god created the world. But in seven seconds, i shattered mine.

Center Stage 2 - Turn it up

I just watched this show. Omg.. Is really.. Awesome! Two thumbs up! Comparable to step up or perhaps some parts are even better. Lol.. I doubt locally will release this show though. Too bad. Got a chance, watch this. You won't regret. Woy yoh yoh~

我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我在搞笑却在醉后眼泪拼命飙

人日

今天是人日. Happy Chinese New Year. =)

Noticing the lapse?

Cny's duration is kinda short this year. Or is it due to my working status? I find it to be extremely boring. Totally not in the "Yeah ang bao!" mood. Do you think the same way as me? What say you?

我感觉麻麻的. 有一点奇怪. 真的...

虚伪的人生

有时侯我在想, 为何世界变的如此之快. 人, 永远都是一切坏事的根源. 我一直在思考着一些难以了解的问题. 我想, 这一辈子都不会有答案的......

累了的时候, 只想让"心", 这只小船靠岸. 需要多少时间, 才能够了解? 需要多少次的尝试, 才能够得到该有的幸福? 我, 其实并不快乐. 一直忙着工作. 希望在忙忙碌碌的生活里, 找到一丝丝的满足. 往往都把悲哀锁进内心深处. 从来没有人问过我的心事. 也没人发现我的无奈. 约定与承诺, 都是虚无的吗? 难道就如大家常说的, 承诺是应该被打翻的? 这世上就不能有一辈子? 就想我之前所说的, 我相信永远并不存在. 但是荒谬的我, 其实一直也在等待着黎明的到来. 我不懂, 我真的不懂. 为何一颗真诚的心, 会没人珍惜? 除非, 一切都是天意..... 我, 郑祥伦, 从来没有听天由命的想法. 对我而言, 人与人之所以会相逢, 是一种缘分. 很多人喜欢滥用缘分. 不要的, 想丢弃的, 就说, 有缘无分. 但, 有没有想过, 命运是掌握在自己手中? 每一条道路, 都是自己选择的. 为何不说自己的毅力不足? 为何不说自己没尽最大的努力? 我相信每一个人在生命中的一个阶段, 都曾怀疑过自己. "如果当初我这样, 那样, 或者多一些努力, 也许就不会有这样的下场". 这又是为何..... 何苦呢?

我控制着我人生的每一个过程和决定. 我想, 在这一路走来, 我已犯了许多错误. 后悔也来不及. 我能做的, 就是珍惜身边的每一个人, 每一样事物. 往事不堪回首....

曾经有一位好朋友告诉过我, 只要你知道, 你已经尽了你的本份, 无愧于心, 那就可以了. 他的立场是不管结局如何, 做到最好, 就足够了. 就算他背叛另一半, 也不能怪他. 因为他已尽力. 我不知道该不该认同他的看法. 一方面他是对的, 但在内心某某一个角落却告诉我这是错的. 我已分不清, 对与错....

我不要在想了. 写出这些, 已经快用光我的精力. 我只是很简单的一个人. 我只想要找到属于我的快乐......

Happy ....... to me..

Today was a sushi day. How nice to see them again. The 3 devils. =) Still as mean as ever. Tsk.. Lets meet up more often ya. Thanks for the present. Appreciate a lot. Especially the thought to even get something.

I never wanted it this way. It just... Happened... Even to my dismay.. Things just went out of control.. Or maybe is just my thoughts.. I don't know, i don't know how to know.. I guess i shouldn't be.. Wasn't, isn't and won't be. I felt numb.. It just... 上了锁.. I think i lost the key. I think i lost myself. I think in this dreadful night, everything seems so bleak.. Where is the so called 说好的幸福? When you look at me, what can you see from my eyes? What can it tells you? Do you even know the reason for my existence?

我相信永远不存在. Don't ask me why. Don't judge my thoughts. It is, and always will be. Do you believe in forever?

A restless night

I am not happy. Totally not. Not in the right mind to explain too. Just wanna pen down my thoughts. What can i say? Things happen for a reason. Am i right? I think i am ridiculous. I think i am contradicting. Perhaps i don't even know myself... I should start learning about my inner self first before i can achieve more. It is just not right for my current situation.

Appear soon.............