Decision

Yesterday another round of drinks again. Not because i wanna it though. I almost expose my secret after being tipsy. Zzz.. Lucky.. How lucky...

I have decided. This is leading to no where. Instantly, i set my mind to cut it off. I told her, "lets stop contacting". This afternoon i did not reply at all. I guess i did the right thing. I can't have her dragging me. Up till now, she is only concern about how she is feeling. Never ever did she ask what am i thinking or how am i feeling. I can never pin-point her mistakes out. It will just make her frustrated and turn negative. This is why we can never have a proper conversation. Can't reach a point of understanding. When i willing to listen, she don't wanna talk. If only she can behave calmly, things will be better. She just has no patience. Bias-ness.. No matter what i say or do, is always wrong in her eyes. So ya... Don't tell me i am good enough. Because to me, i am never enough for you. No matter how hard i try, i can never reach it. Just take it as i am shitty. You deserve better. Everything is my fault.

Much better now. Straightened my thoughts. Gonna follow what i set my mind to. Cut it off. The bonds. Only in this way, then i can see my future. =)

One day, just one fine day, your spell will have no effect on me anymore.