Wipe away the dust

I am not diligent enough to blog. The phase of expressing my feelings and thoughts slowly die off. Two weeks back, while working, i was actually quite surprised by janice. She suddenly message me, "Are you ok? Something is bothering you?" I always find it amusing when she is just sitting opposite of me but got to use message instead of saying it out. None of my other colleagues notice something is bothering me except for her. I got to say, thanks for asking. I thought i am acting normal. But you saw the sign...

As usual, work and studies are taking up most of my timing. Recently been drinking very often. On my money tap. Flowing like how singaporeans use water.

Suzuki swift, Toyota altis or vios, Honda fit. Give me a while more, one of you will be mine! =)

I am kinda hesitating. Like what i said, it will be tough on you. Basically, i don't have any trust for girls. Which means relationship is a risky and non-profitable investment for me. That is why i am reluctant to. I gave enough previously. I am tired to be the "giver". You said you are willing to go through this with me. How sure are you? Don't you think you will feel upset more often? Sometimes i can make you really helpless with my emo-ness. I can make you feel that no matter what you did, i am still rooted to the ground. I agreed that time will tell. I also acknowledge the fact that i can't be always hiding in the past and not willing to move on. But if i can forget easily, that is not me anymore. Is not about you anymore. Is me. If only i can be more cold blooded.....